As
she passed the café she peered through the windows. She always hated the trendy
addition to her beloved boulevard. She would always think of this spot as
Joseph's Emporium with all its trinkets. Not this horrible café full of
pretentious youth on their portable computer devices. Whatever compelled
someone to sit in public and act like they were alone? What was the purpose in
that she thought? Although today she noticed something different as she glared
into the café. A young girl in her twenties with soft curls framing the
delicate curves of her slender face smiled broadly as she spoke with a long
haired boy that she had seen there many mornings as she passed the place. There
was a certain comfort in the way the girl looked at the boy and how he
reciprocated. Margret was taken back to her own youth when she met Frank on
this very street. He was rather dapper in his fedora, leaning against the light
pole on the corner of Boulevard and Main. He was smoking and peering out from
under the rim of his hat. How she loved that devilish twinkle he had in his
eyes. Frank had grinned from the corner of his mouth and tipped his hat. She
knew from that moment that she would be with no other.
As
she shuffled by the café she caught her reflection grinning back at her. She
could not recall the last time she had smiled. The world began to cloud over as
she fought back tears.
As
she got home she placed the newspaper in the corner with the others, discarded remnants
of old routines. The apartment was stuffy and stagnant but she knew the fresh
air would only chill Frank. She found him in his chair by the window where she
had left him. He was looking out the window yet his eyes seemed to cast out
beyond the row of buildings that framed the boulevard.
“It's
a beautiful morning for a walk” she said.
Frank
did not even stir at the sound of her voice. His eyes were fixed on the window
or somewhere beyond deep in the recesses of his mind. She stroked his thinning
white hair and kissed the top of his head.
Margret
stepped into the kitchen, resting her palms on the yellowing Formica of the
counter top; she tried to steady herself as the tremors began in her gut. She
tried not to cry, to be strong for Frank but she found herself mourning her
husband. He sat in the other room and yet he was already gone. That devilish
twinkle long ago faded into a distant stare. But the tears came today and she
didn't hold back.
She
recalled the pretty young girl in the café and how enamored she had been for
the boy. It reminded her of why she dedicated herself to what was left of
Frank. She realized she never gave up on him. He had to be in there, his soul
trapped behind a traitorous mind. Her cries came in gasping sobs as she chocked
back, hand cupping her mouth. Frank might hear and she didn't want him to
worry. She laughed at the absurdity of her concern - laughter and tears.
She
felt she was now losing her mind. She took a deep breath to calm herself and stood
in the dank kitchen wondering if she could find a way to bring her Frankie
back. She wanted to see his smile and hear his dry jokes as he gave her that
sly smirk. She found him still staring blankly into the sunny morning air.
“Would
you like me to go to Demeres' and get a nice mango?” She asked.
“I
know you love mangoes the most and the fruit market has the best” She
continued.
It
was then she caught a shift in his gaze. He scanned away from the window toward
her voice. His eyes transfixed on her and he simply stared.
She
had not seen any glimpse of acknowledgment in so long it was like a prayer
being answered. A miracle of muscle turning Frank's eyes in response to her
voice, she would later question if her imagination had gotten the better of her
but she thought she caught a glimmer of the devilish glint in his eye.
She almost forgot that her seventy-eight year old legs would not support her rush out of the apartment – searching her handbag without an upward glance. She stumbled down the last steps and into a small fair haired boy with his hands over his ears. He didn't even have time to dodge as he fell onto the concrete. There were no tears. The boy quietly sat on the pavement observing his torn jeans and bleeding knee with disinterest. Margret felt horrible that in her excitement to retrieve a mango she had been oblivious of others.
She almost forgot that her seventy-eight year old legs would not support her rush out of the apartment – searching her handbag without an upward glance. She stumbled down the last steps and into a small fair haired boy with his hands over his ears. He didn't even have time to dodge as he fell onto the concrete. There were no tears. The boy quietly sat on the pavement observing his torn jeans and bleeding knee with disinterest. Margret felt horrible that in her excitement to retrieve a mango she had been oblivious of others.
“Are
you okay, son?” She asked.
“I've
seen worse” He whispered. She barely heard his words - he avoided her eyes.
“I
need to get to school” He said, scurrying up and checking his palms for
additional wounds.
“Can
I help?” She asked.
“Help
with what?” he said in confusion. He never got any help any other miserable day
of his life. What could an old lady do to help? He hurried off and left the
lady without a further glance back.
Margret’s concern for the boy
turned to her mission for fruit and a heart full of hope.